My Ana Thoughts

43) I stayed home the entire weekend while all my friends were out having fun. Just so I could...

Sun, 25 Mar 2012 20:45:47 -0400

43) I stayed home the entire weekend while all my friends were out having fun. Just so I could starve and workout.

42) Why ME?!

Sun, 25 Mar 2012 20:42:28 -0400

42) Why ME?!

About that number 24... Maybe she figures that if she tries to change you, she might lose you. Maybe you'll retaliate or just get worse so she leaves you to it and is just there for you whenever you need her... I dont think she doesn't care, I'm sure she does. One of my best friends was bullimic and did heavy drugs but instead of telling her it was wrong I acted like nothing was happening because she had enough on her mind and I knew my friendship was all she needed from me, not senseless bull<3

Sun, 25 Mar 2012 20:40:35 -0400

Thank you for taking your time writing to me… One week ago the girl I wrote about (my bestfriend) said I was a freak and she told me that what I was doing is wrong. I know it’s wrong but still… She haven’t spoken to me since then.
So I don’t think she cares… Not at all and now I’m completely alone…

41) When I look at old pictures from when I was a child I always start to cry at the thought of that little, innocent, child turned into this big mess.

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 19:41:30 -0400

40) I'm completely alone and I'm scared as hell.

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:14:18 -0400

39) The pain inside of me won't go away. No matter how hard I try to get rid of it.

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:10:00 -0400

38) Who could ever love someone like me?

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 19:15:58 -0400

38) Who could ever love someone like me?

35) This day has been a really bad one.

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 17:15:25 -0500

35) This day has been a really bad one.

36) No one gives a shit. Thats the truth. My mom cleaned my bathroom and found the ring of bile inside my toilet from puking. Both my parents have found diet pills and scales, and watched me count calories and skips meals. What do they do? Shrug if off. Probably just a phase, that you know, has been going on for quite some time now…

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 10:57:24 -0500

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35) Every time he says he can’t hang out or doesn’t have time for me all I can think is that it’s because he thinks I’m too fat.

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 10:56:13 -0500

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34) I told my friend that I got problems with food. Yet she still makes jokes about me being fat. I've started to think that there's only truth in her "jokes".

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 19:07:50 -0500

I'm wondering if losing a lot of weight will thin out your face?

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 18:47:49 -0500

Yeah it will. xx

To all of my lovely followers:

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 18:17:48 -0500

If you ever need someone to talk to, send me a email: myanathoughts@live.com
I’m always here for you guys if you need someone to talk to! Love, “S” xx

33) The thing is that I don't even enjoy hanging with my friends anymore. I'm such an ungrateful idiot, I should be happy that I still have them.

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 17:58:33 -0500

32) After a huge fight i had with my parents, i was taken to a phyciatrist about my ED. As she felt my heart rate, a concerned look came over her face. her words still haunt me. ‘You need.to go to westmead hospital now or you will die of a low heart rate.’ upon my arrival, i was told i would be placed in a ward that treats people with anorexia. The worst thing is when you tell people that you have this disease and they say ’ why cant you just eat?’ but its more than that, its a mimdset. Even though i have recently gotten out, i still battle everyday.

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 17:34:09 -0500

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31) At new years I was at a friend of mines party and I met a boy there. I was going to go grab a drink and then I remembered that I had left my phone in of the bedrooms, so I went there to get it. When I came into the room I heard the boy I've met saying: "yeah, she's like really, really pretty. But I think she's chubby". Since then everything has gotten worse.

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 06:28:00 -0500

30) My friend was showing me her new clothes one day and she said “if these shorts are huge on me, you can have them” a few months before that I had stopped starving myself. Now i’m back to starving and her words haunt me.

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 06:14:00 -0500

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29) Collarbones is one of the most beautiful things in this world.

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 21:33:15 -0500

28) The worst time comes at night when I'm laying in bed, it's impossible to sleep while all those tears are streaming down my face.

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 21:21:35 -0500

Answer to: imjustana.tumblr.com

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 21:18:31 -0500

Thank you so much imjustana.tumblr.com. (You don’t have an ask buttom so I have to write it here)
It’s just that I have no one to talk to about this because none of my friends or family would understand me if I told them about this… :( xxx